beau-brummel's Diaryland Diary

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bizzarity

jamming was nice. the room was spacious and colourful. the drums were cool. the songs were nice to play. yay~ =]]

a wierd thing happened to me just now when i was getting me a b.k meal just now. i was about to lift the tray and head for my seat when the drink on my tray spilled.

me: oops!!sorry
cashier: nah.its alright. i'll clean that up.
me:i'm really sorry. [i said that alotta times]
cashier: hah. its ok. why are you so cute?
me: sorry..

hah. it was wierd. i could have sworn the cashier was flirting with me. hah. well,whatever. the drink spilled onto my tee,abit of my jeans and my canvas. what great luck.

`` i missed you every second that you are away from me. i really do. i wanna see you. i love you sweetie..

when you look at your reflection for a long time, do you get the feeling that you are looking at someone else? do you feel that the reflection not doing what you are doing? you wonder..

-i'm nuts

11:06 p.m. - 2005-04-16

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pages of ...

thanks for your support and thanks for visiting me regularly. well, that was fake..totally..

it was awfully warm in the afternoon and now i can see lightning out my window. its dark for 7.50pm. this darkness would only appear during the wee hours of the day. damn. a totally wicked flashes of lightning just appeared. damn. it feels like i am in a horror movie, with no one and no where to turn to. well, that's life. everyone goes through that senario, eventually..

congrats to my skool band for their achievements in the syf. way to go band geeks!!! hah.. where are your medals? gold medals to be specific.

you sometimes get the feeling of running to the cold, pouring rain and scream your heart out. your feel like tearing someone apart. you scream and no one can differentiate your screams and the crashing rain. how ironic. screams of an addict equals to the sweet melody of the rain. you gaze down at your reflection, with the lightning flashing at you, you see a person that represents what you are feeling. you see that person so clearly. you light up a wicked,sadistic smile and admire the reflection. that is not just anybody. that is you. do you get it??

`` the weather makes me wanna hug you so much. i wanna see you right now. i love you. i really,really love you.

-i'm nuts..

7:48 p.m. - 2005-04-12

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murmuring over nothing

it's getting warmer and warmer. the days are ticking slowly to the next time it's going to rain. this situation is very random. at one moment,its extremely warm and the next moment, it starts raining heavily. hmm.. you wonder..

think about this: when you dress, people dress like you. when you walk, people walk like you. when you die, people die with you. makes sense?

midyear's coming up at the beginning of may. damn. its fast. and soon after, it's make or break time. o'level m.t paper commences.. i wonder how i will do in the paper. hmm.. to everyone taking o'levels: please wake and up and smell the hot fucking coffee. get serious will ya?

`` it was nice holding your hand. it was nice sitting down with you. i wish it could never end. really... i love you sweetie

-i'm nuts..

12:05 p.m. - 2005-04-10

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time is of the essence

sorry to all that i have not updated lately. dland is totally screwed up and i'm thinking of moving..or not. depends.

its 1am and most would be asleep. i've done my studying and am now,on the phone with my sweetie.

`` how,hearing you sleep is oh-so-angelic. it melts my heart just to imagine you hugging the bolster to sleep. i love you sweetie.

a week of total happenings, the class' getting more active. well, in a good way. had a few laughs with a few friends just now. felt kinda good..

watching the world go pass you in such a speed that it is frightening to even catch up. time's too fast. and the future's too slow. roads are empty now, but will not be when tomorrow comes. skies are care-free, only to discover hypocrites damaging the ozone layer. the world's ending, the only question is, when? we don't know for sure. but one thing that is true, it's coming. and, at the rate time is moving, it wont be long now..

what's with teenagers and punk? well, they do not exactly match, but, its happening. i hear more people talking about 'good charlotte' and 'simple plan'. even on the buses, i hear that. music's life. and life's music. back in the days where the real punks were totally inspirational to us, they could degenerate a powerplant, hypothetically speaking. anti-government,stud belts, long hair, leather jackets,you know, the usual. i see 15/16 year olds dressing like that and i'm feeling sad for them. its pathetic enough they do not read the papers, but the amount of work that has been done by the government should be appreciated, not fought against. i know, dressing is up to your own free will. but, its the 21st century. times have changed. that sentence is cliche. i dont know if i'm making sense. my fingers did all the thinking. hmm..
fyi,i'm not against punk. i like punk. i just dont support it that much, just enough support. no more,no less..

till whenever. i wanna go doo something. maybe burn a house,or two.

-i'm nuts..

1:02 a.m. - 2005-04-08

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times like these

everything is falling back to its normal place again. finally. the spaces have been filled. after a while, it feels good to have finally retrieve something that has been long gone.

to tell you the truth, skool's been pretty interesting lately. the pressure is really heating up. everyone's trying to eat everyone. my class is getting more serious and its good. even my e.maths teacher noticed it. i said before in my previous entries, my class has not been performing up to standard. but, i have a feeling we are going to. i'm starting to like this class, after 1 year and 3 months. hah. well, we'll see how it goes..

sorry for not updating recently. i've been brushing up on my studies and have barely enough time to glance back and realise where i am. bangkok as nice. pictures will be up soon. most probably, i'll upload it during the weekend's break. the afternoons and nights during weekdays are reserved for me to study and read. hmm..

`` its good to hear that you're feeling much better. i was so worried just now. i love you sweetie. i really do.

toodles everybody. till whenever. i wanna go offline. bahh.

-i'm nuts..over you

10:49 p.m. - 2005-03-30

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isolation of the greatest places

sorry for not updating,you guys. thanks for the thoughtful reminders on the tagboard. appreciate it alot =]]

alotta shit happened in the past few weeks or so. nothing major. only minor. you know, those things that make you change the way you study, the sleeping time you get and the amount of time you have to enjoy. its happening. and i hate it. time's moving too damn fast. why??

`` i'll miss you so much. i dont wanna go. here i go.i'll write about everything.the life.the excitement.i'll detail everything.and obviously, i'll be very specific on how much i miss you. i wanna stay here and talk to you. i love you so much,sweetheart. i really do <33

i'm going bangkok, tomorrow. my flight's twelve hours from now. miss me, if you wanna. =]] i'll update again when i'm back.

till sunday or something. aha`` _________________________________ i'm at the airport right now. the airport has this cool free internet access area.haha.radical! haha.well,i'm off to bangkok in about an hours time. miss me u guys. thanks for the kind messages. i appreciate it alot. ` i miss u so much dear.i love you.i'll always think of u.

-i'm off to bangkok..

10:55 p.m. - 2005-03-24

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lovely solitude

fucking sprained ankle. its irritating u know. everytime you try and turn it,for even 16 degrees, it hurts. well, just gotta sit through the pain. not literally. =]]

its the holidays. homework. remedials. everyone's using the holidays to catch up. really. i can tell. everyone is pumped up into doing well for their midyear and later prelims and eventually for their o's. ...

everybody means something. one way or another. everything has a meaning. then, why is everything going away. why is everybody going away. hmm. you wonder.

`` i cant wait. i love you. <33

-i'm nuts..

9:42 a.m. - 2005-03-14

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punched in the nose

i'm so hungry. damn. i got nothing to eat at home. fucking shit. it's been like that for the past few days. the food has not been restocked. it should be!! ahh~

the definition of holidays. go to my friends blogs. they have their own definition. homework's stacked and its equivalent to the time spent in skool. shit. remedials on tuesday and wednesday. and i got the forum meeting on thursday. and most probably an emaths remedial on friday. is that what u call a remedial? hah.

i gotta be there. i really have to. i've not been there. and i'm gonna be there. i have to.

` i will marry you. even if i have to run away and go with you to a faraway place. i love you so much,sweetheart.

i got a new printer/scanner. just came in today. and i knew about it today. i wonder why my dad bought a new one. hmm.. whatever. go figure.

-i'm nuts..over you

11:30 p.m. - 2005-03-11

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10032005

well, the parents meeting went kinda smooth.lol.i got compliments and other stuff. i can actually get an A for my maths! haha. suprising how much my e.maths teacher has faith in me. it spurs me on. i'd like to thank my form teacher, my e.maths teacher,my chem teacher,my phy teacher and my m.t teacher for driving me foward. thanks! haha.

` i really feel so motivated to do well. mainly,because of you. i'm doing this ALL for you. and only you. no one else. i love you sweetie~

the holidays are coming, and the amount of homework is really piling up. it feels that i'll spend my holidays doing homework,rather than resting at home. damn. study,homework. haha. so jiggie. how do u feel, if u got 40 structured essay questions to do? haha. that is just the beginning. lol. there is so much more. damn. homework. well, its nice. haha. gimmie more. pressure makes u wanna study more. its true.haha. dont u think so??

go figure. til whenever den.`

-i'm nuts..over you

10:52 p.m. - 2005-03-10

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-.-

ever heard of a band that has an eleven year old kid,doing the screaming for their songs? yeah. its true. i came across this band that is super nice and is super unique. goodness. an eleven year old as their screamer. awesome. and he sounds mighty good for an eleven year old.

fifa street is a fantastic game. i'm like so addicted to the game. its really good and really addictive. just get the game. dont care if u hate soccer or not. just buy it and play. u'll like it.

` imissyou..

the weather's bloody random. it was warm yesterday and today,it rained. damn. make up ur mind,will ya?

-ahredhae

4:44 p.m. - 2005-03-06

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snuffl

back to editing photos again. damn. i need to take more shots. i miss snapping fotos. i'm always forgetting my cam.

there are so many people listening to emo nowadays. mcr seems to be latest band that everyone's starting to like. damn. its a band that deserves recognition,the moment they released their album. after eons,then mcr gets noticed. its kinda embarassing to see people stating they like emo just like that. damn. i see poseurs everywhere. seriously. i dont like it one bit. fuck them all.

` i wanna look at the stars with you.. i wish i could transport with you to another world, where there is only me and u. i love you..

i'm still snuffled. damn. my nose's leaking and its irritating. i had tution just now and i had to hold back my mucus for two fucking hours. and i had alot of tissue at my disposal. damn.

i'm fucking hungry. i wanna go grab something to eat. til whenever people..

-i'm fugly..period

9:46 p.m. - 2005-03-04

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we go to three

i've been kinda sick lately. fuck. my throat was killing me and i was kinda heaty. at least i feel better now. ohh yeahh.. even in class i'm suffering in silence. thanks for your care and concern. *shrugs* damn you~

`` i'm sick and you took care of me. i was down and you brought me up. i love you sweetheart. i really do..

the o'level results was not peachy at all. my class recieved alot of complaints and speeches. honestly, the whole staff in yuhua secondary thinks that my class is gunna flung the o'levels. period. well, its time to stand up and take notice. the environment is totally sucky and the condition the class is going, no wonder so many people think that way. i'm not gunna look back anymore. its time to go straight ahead. screw it

its the sports heats and i'm at home,typing on my keyboard. i'm not going cos, obviously,i'm sick. well, its gonna rain. so to the people at the stadium right now, TOO BAD!! lol. i'm sure it'll be postponed. oh yeah. how i love the rain. =]]

oh yeah, i saw leia in the car when i was on my way home from playing soccer yesterday. haha. sorry i did not go and bang on the car. haha.

-i'm nuts

12:58 p.m. - 2005-03-03

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withered

jamming was fun. alotta people came. kind of plain,cos another guitarist did not come. all in all,it was not half bad. oh yeah, i got me a puma street soccer shoe.mwhaha.sweet~

oh yeah, before anything, i wanna thank haikel for helping accompanying me and helping me with the shoe. its white/black/silver and it has orange laces. haha i know. i'm crazy to have orange. lol.

`` it was really nice to hear your voice again. i'll wait with you till the day we depart this world, hand in hand, and heart to heart. i love you, sweetheart.

it's interesting to know that the new 'mats' of singapore are not wearing tapered jeans anymore. instead, they are wearing 3/4 or jeans that are normal,sandals and some lame cap/shirt. and a studded belt to add to their troubles. haha. well,whatever. it's irritating to see that. damn. i know everyone hates that. screw them.

here's a poem which i thought of.

roses are red,
violets are blue,
i was brought to this world,
to love only you..

it's 12.03am right now. i wanna go burn time. well,till whenever.

-i'm nuts..over you

11:57 p.m. - 2005-02-26

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how soon is now?

the weather has slightly been better for the past two days. it was not as warm as last week, which is obviously a sign of better weather to come. i'll welcome the rain,anyday. =]]

i can feel the sense of studying among my classmates. not exactly all, but those few whom i know well. from a class that has so little class spirit, it's a good way to end the year and end the time where we'll study together. honestly, time is moving too fast for my liking. damn. i hate it.

` __ i want time to stop,when i'm with you and i want time to move when i'm not with you. i wish things worked like that. i love you sweetie..

i'm getting accustomed to the surroundings. it's looking good. i hope it'll stay that way. oh yeah.

-i'm nuts.period

9:58 p.m. - 2005-02-22

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sunday driVe

damn. 2 fucking tests tomorrow and i've not mugged hard for either. i gotta wake up early in the damn morning to stoody. hope i can force sleepy self to wake up and study. i don't wanna fail the tests. nah. whatever. i won't fail. remember what nacli taught you, ' if u always do what u always did, u always get what u always got'. its a damn good quote,btw. haha

i noticed that more and more people are digging the posthardcore//screamo thing. well, not really la. i only seen a few people digging the more mainstream bands. not the underground ones. haha. betcha they'll only like what they hear mainstream. try listening to saetia. it'll change ur mind about listening to screamo,if u just came into the scene. haha.

i really wanna keep my hair for as long as possible. haha. it might sound totally crazy, but i wanna be able to tie at least a mini ponytail by june. haha. nury is able to the a funny looking upwards ponytail. haha. well, his hair is long. but mine's not. hmm. c'mon hair! grow!

ever noticed how beginner bloggers always describe about every single damn thing that happened to them on that day?haha. amatuer. to think that i was one of em` before. haha. every blogger was.lol. dont u think so?? of cos u do..

whatever la. i wanna go wait for my sweetie's call. good nite everyone/ til whenever~

-i'm nuts..over you

10:18 p.m. - 2005-02-20

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its warm

well, its official. i'm feeling abit woozy and its fucking warm for the past few days. argh. i hate the weather. and to add icing to the cake, my class had to run 2.4km just now during the 2nd and 3rd period. it felt different,running in humid conditions. it feels so sticky and irritating. damn. it felt that i had got at least 10mins. but i did not. damn. stoopid weather. i would have gotten at least a 9min++ if it were'nt for the weather. fuck the weather.

studying is more of a challange to me,now,in a way. the weather, the homework,etc,etc. damn. all games aside, i really wanna do well, from now on. seeing what i've got so far for my current set of common tests, i am obviously not pleased. damn. i'm even waking up at 4 later, to stoody for my chem. retest tomorrow.

life is like a cycle,now that skool has resumed. yeah? its like, u wake up, u go to skool, u stoody, u come back, u sleep, u wake up and it repeats over and over again. damn. how i wish skool can be more exciting and something else to look forward to. i look forward to skool,because i get to see her, other than that, i just go there to stoody. excitement is lacking in skools. in fact, every skool. nah. we should really bring up this matter and try and get something out of it. well, its the education system that has practically no flaws. i just found a flaw for u. the education system that u are so used to. the education system that is imperfect. well, its just boring. honestly.

i need a massage. damn. help me will'ya? =]]

-i'm nuts

10:36 p.m. - 2005-02-17

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i'm only chasing impossible

everyone has to please everyone. get what i mean? you look good for everyone and everyone looks good for you. its a 50-50 thing. you know? you wake up in the morning and when you prepare to go to skool, did you notice how much time you spend on the mirror? honestly speaking, i did not even look at myself in the mirror just now when i proceeded to skool. yeah. i was vain, last year. that was last year. lol. screw my hair. screw the zits. screw everything. why do you look good? honestly ask yourself. yeah. you make yourself presentable towards others and expect some kinda comment to come from them or something. yeah. you're expecting something like 'hey!you look cuter today. whatsup? new hair eh?' or ' oit! lookin' good~!'. get my point?

yeah. yeah. i know. i myself do tend to want to look good. but, it's only skool. you put on the dull skool uniform and expect some kinda magic to happen to yourself. screw it. its just looks. in this world, if you don't look good, you're gonna get eaten alive. and when you look good, you're gonna be the one eating. i'm not implying anything here. i admit. i'm not mr. good-looking. i'm just your plain, average boy whom you just look once and have a sterotypical answer printed in your head. you know. those kinda people. people whom are somehow outcasted from others. these 'special' few are really treated differently from others. well, you know. i'm damn sure you have friends whom you can relate to, to that sentence.

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10:13 p.m. - 2005-02-15

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valentine

its valentines day and i'm loving every second of it. actually, i'm not into the valentine thingy. u dun need just a day to show ur love for someone. everyday is valentines day. but, since love is oh so high today, i just went along with it.

`` happy valentines day, sweetheart. i hope u liked today. every part of it. i wish i could see u right now. i wanna hug u and tell u that i love u a zillion times. i love u sweetie. happy valentines day~

a nice day. love at its pinnacle. new relationships are formed and old relationships are strenghtened.people ponder over what u wanna give to ur special someone on this very day. to me, the answer is, all ur love. well, if u can show that someone a day that he/she will never forget, its enough to please the person. i dunno what others think. but this is what i think. haha. some times, i think in a way that is so bizzare that its stoopid. haha

i wanna go n take a shower. before i do that, i would like to wish everyone, a happy valentines day!!!

-'would u be my valentine?'

7:55 p.m. - 2005-02-14

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hwesjrsksrkk

its wierd u noe. chinese new year. i just realised that the chinese aint using their traditional costumes.thats bad.seriously. at least we,malays do wear our baju kurungs with pride. but, i saw nothing that resembles of a cheongsam or a cheongsee?lol.whatever it is, the main point is that, where has the traditions gone to? hmm.. i question..

ecp//sentosa was jam packed with banglas. damn. its fucking irritating u noe. bloody hell. i feel like dissing them off. damn. even when i went home from tution just now, the fucking banglas were staring at me. damn. its irritating. they are everywhere. the government should really take control. seriously. it would be bangla-pore/not singapore anymore. damn. honestly, i appreciate them coming down and help us with manual labour. but off the record, they are just polluting the place. really. at night, they sit down in groups and drink beer and eat peanuts till they decide to piss. damn. i'm not saying that we should eradicate them. we should at least teach them basic courtesy and manners. damn. fucking hell..

skool was not that bad. honestly. it was pretty,alright,to say the least. i shared with my pals what happened during the past 2 days. and it was fun. =]] well, skool's coming down hard in the next few weeks. common tests, and such. its a goal that i aim to achieve; pass the bloody test. and by god i'm goin to do that, and more. lets just see. hmm..

` simply, i love you so much. i had a good time, the other day. a really good time. i love you so damn much. i really do..```

10:33 p.m. - 2005-02-11

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happy cny

its chinese new year and i'm not a wee bit happy for my chinese friends. lol.well,good for them,they have a festival that finally gives the kids money.lol.good for them~

the holidays are just a restbreak for skool. the time used to stoody in skool has been eaten up by chinese new year. honestly, today has gone pretty plain. i woke up,ate,computer,slept again and finally at 5pm,just bathed.lol. yeahh.i'm a lazy boy~

at least tomorrow's a day to look foward to. finally,i'll be out there,breathing the open air and enjoying the scenery. it beats staying at home,yeah?

i've come to the conclusion that i don't know wat else to do today. i wanna study,but i just cant bring myself to do it. all i'm doing, to waste time is play the bloody ps2. damn. its addictive. haha. i wonder how the rest are enjoying this day. i'm guessing majority are out there, with their friends,selfishly laughing and doin nothing. well,good for them.

happy cny to all~~

-i'm nuts

5:20 p.m. - 2005-02-09

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redox

its gonna be holidays for the next 3 days. damn. it feels good. but, honestly, after cny,there is barely anymore holidays to look forward too. well, enjoy it as much as we can.

all the chinese will be busy cleaning this and that and packing here and there. it's gonna be a festive affair. and i for one cant wait to see people jamming up the roads and houses with excessive perfume and overrated clothes. well, it's just inevitable.

i just found out today that our class will be designing our desks. well, its a good idea. looking at my desks will really motivate me. yeahh.lovely. i cant wait to get cracking on it =]] gotta wait til end of cny to finish it tho.lol

` __it felt good to be so close to you and hold ur hand. i miss u so much. i feel like hugging u everytime i look at u. ure so sweet. i love you sweetheart

-i'm nuts..over you

8:38 p.m. - 2005-02-07

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to bean..

my heart hurts to see you like this. at least u have gone to a better place. i cherished every second i spent with you. it's saddening to even say it. rest in peace, bean

flag day was great. i spent every second with her. screw flag day. well, i did do some donating. well, whatever it is, yesterday was a great day. i'll never forget. i love you so much sweetheart.

..i have no mood to update. maybe later. its really saddening me.

-i love you`

2:09 p.m. - 2005-02-06

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harmonium meloDy

hmm.. have i changed? honestly. i really have no idea. i'm just questioning myself. it's been on mind for weeks and i still ponder if i really have changed. hmm. ur thoughts?

vanessa carlton's new album rocks my pants! it's nice. well, for those who enjoy piano at another angle, dun listen to alica keys. mwhaha =]] vanessa carlton's much and way better than her.

` ` ur head on my shoulders made me feel like everything went soo right in the world. it was nice holding ur hand. i love you, sweetheart~

-oan hjjte

10:20 p.m. - 2005-02-01

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contaminate me with poison

the first day of the two day oredeal is over,finally. damn. i have a bad feeling about my tests i had today. shit. all of a sudden, my mind went a total blank. fuck it. well, i gave it all i got. soo yeah. ..think imma gunna pass. tomorrow's emaths and chem. damn. chem's hard to understand, but i have to cos its a friggin common test. well, shit it. its pass-able.

`` u look soo cute just now,everydaY. really. i mean it. i love you melissa~

only those who know someone, will really know them,inside out. only those who know someone,will know someone. well, go figure. =]]

january is drawing to a close and its really fast, come to think of it. in a few months, the o's are here and its mugging all the way..u think about it, it felt like just a few days ago, i was waking up at noon and eating oreo in the afternoon. u noe, the usual. bizzare eh? time is passing too quickly, in my book. damn. time should move slower.. it really should.

-i'm nuts..over you

6:23 p.m. - 2005-01-31

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sunday

common tests are coming and i gotta get down and mug for it. fuck it. i cant keep fooling around. its time to get serious. like what nacli taught me ' if u always do what u always did, u always get what u always got'. and its so fucking true. imma gunna make dat my motto for the o's. hope it comes with good effect.

` none can fathom how much i miss u right now. i feel so miserable. i miss u sweetie.. i love you.~

skool's starting and i am soo gunna like it. =]]

-oanh4sonh4t5h

7:36 p.m. - 2005-01-30

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2.21AM

2.19 am.

fuck it. its time to sleep. well,good nite everyone.

-i love you melissa. i hope i dream of u. oh wait. i dun have to hope. cos i will dream of u. good nite sweetheart <33

2:19 a.m. - 2005-01-29

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oreo n' milK

i'm eating oreo with milk. yay. haha. its so delish. mmMmm~ there is practically nothing interesting to eat in my house. damn. i'm close to famished.

changes is good. izzit? i dunno. its just a thought. personally, the changes you make should benefit only u, mainly because its your life and you control it,not others. but, on the other hand, others will change their perseptive of you. that is actually true. a round of truth or dare in class just now triggered this thought. damn. well, i've changed? lol. who knows. i myself don't. and everyone's saying i've changed. hmm. well, i dunno. seriously. i'm not here to please anyone. whatever it is i have changed into, just accept it. i'm being myself. well, its the truth, the whole truth and nothing BUT the truth. well, whatever. it was just a thought. haha

` the time i have with you, is always cherished and the time i spend without you is quickly forgotten. i love you melissa. =]]

english common test tomorrow!! ahh! damn. i wanna know how much imma gunna get. i'm excited for the fcuking english common test. and speaking of english, im trying to force myself to read at least a book a week. a hard, but possible goal for me to achieve. well, its for my o's. and an A in english, will really help me get into the course i want,come next febuary. hmm..

damn. i just finished eating an entire packet of oreo. haha. nicee.. haha. well, till whenever people

-i'm nuts..over you

10:05 p.m. - 2005-01-26

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super-perduper

i got a chem test tomorrow and i've not studied alot. damn. gotta wake up early later ands stoody. i wanna pass this test. i really feel that i've not been working that hard. damn. i wonder how i can get myself to sit down for a solid 4 hour study marathon. maybe when the o's come than that'll happen. other than that, it's just me,studying from page to page,from note to note. oh yeah~~

friends forever? lol. who knows? i dont. well, there is a 'yes' and a 'no'. a friend in need is a friend indeed. omfg. that sounded so bisexual. mwhaha. at this stage of your life, friends come and go, just like that. you will never know your true friends, until they help you at your time of crisis. well, it was just a thought. heard a song, dat triggered this thought. mwhaha. whatever.

i heard taufik's new album oreadi. damn, it was not as good as i expected. i think he did not put in that much effort in making the album. u can hear it by his voice. he performed better in the s'pore idols. not in this album. well, whatever. i'm just giving my review. 6/10 for the newcomer. =]]

i'm still sneezing. damn. help la someone! anyone know a remedy for flu? hoi!!! help la dey! mwhaha

` simply, i love you. i really do.. =]] __

oh yeah, i wanna remind intan, that i want the squishy thingy from nyp. lol.til here people. wanna mandi.til whenever

-phiasej[pnmw4j6opw4

9:41 p.m. - 2005-01-25

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somewhere in the middle

thanks to all that have tagged at my board. i really appreciate ur comments and i love the way u guys think about my layout. thanks!

the skool's foyer is looking so handsome. mwhaha. it's so bald and grey. damn. bloody tiles. well, screw it. they should just relocate the damn skool. screw the finances. just relocate yuhua. omg, how pathetic yhss is. damn.

well, i got an A for my locus test. =]] yeah! how sweet. if i can keep this up for all my tests, then keeping up this year wont be that difficult. common tests are coming up. and i mean they are coming at one shot. before you know it, u have 2/3 common tests in a day.

` seriously speaking, no word can express how much i love you. i love you so much.. i really do. it feels that i love you more and more by every second. how interestingg =]]

damn. i got the snuffles for a few days already. i'm kinda pissed with the friggin' mucus that is running down my nose.mwhaha. sounds yucky. anyone knows a good cure for snuffles? or a mini-remedy? whatever la. i just wanna get rid of it. argh

i placed a mystery machine patch on moi bag and it looks good,to me. =]] well, i don't give a fcuk wat the rest think, but if u happen to see more bags with patches, u should noe what happened =]] . lol.

i wanna go stoody and stuff. damn. i've not even bathed. lol. i had a nice nap just now and i've not shaken off the cobwebs. well, till the next entry, so long ~

-i'm nuts..over you..

7:29 p.m. - 2005-01-24

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somewhere in the middle

thanks to all that have tagged at my board. i really appreciate ur comments and i love the way u guys think about my layout. thanks!

the skool's foyer is looking so handsome. mwhaha. it's so bald and grey. damn. bloody tiles. well, screw it. they should just relocate the damn skool. screw the finances. just relocate yuhua. omg, how pathetic yhss is. damn.

well, i got an A for my locus test. =]] yeah! how sweet. if i can keep this up for all my tests, then keeping up this year wont be that difficult. common tests are coming up. and i mean they are coming at one shot. before you know it, u have 2/3 common tests in a day.

` seriously speaking, no word can express how much i love you. i love you so much.. i really do. it feels that i love you more and more by every second. how interestingg =]]

damn. i got the snuffles for a few days already. i'm kinda pissed with the friggin' mucus that is running down my nose.mwhaha. sounds yucky. anyone knows a good cure for snuffles? or a mini-remedy? whatever la. i just wanna get rid of it. argh

i placed a mystery machine patch on moi bag and it looks good,to me. =]] well, i don't give a fcuk wat the rest think, but if u happen to see more bags with patches, u should noe what happened =]] . lol.

i wanna go stoody and stuff. damn. i've not even bathed. lol. i had a nice nap just now and i've not shaken off the cobwebs. well, till the next entry, so long ~

-i'm nuts..over you..

7:29 p.m. - 2005-01-24

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new laYout

well, new layout.enjoy it u guys.i'll update more later.mwhaha. sweet. i love this layout.its fcuking sweet. its simple.yeahh.very.maybe whenever i'll try a more complex layout.u noe.the ones with words and links.?yeah.that one.mwhaha =]] i love you melissa.so much
-i'm so nuts

12:13 p.m. - 2005-01-22

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20/1

it's this time,15 years ago, that you were born. and now, ure here, holding hands with me and hugging me. walking down the beach and holding your hand through the midday breeze was so nice. it gave me warm memories. its like in an instant, i can remember what exactly happened. and i love the feeling. my heart melted on the spot. happy birthday,my dearest melissa. i love you so so much. i love you more than life itself.

i enjoyed the lovely scenery and the warmth that you gave me. it felt so heartwarming. it's one of those days where nothing could go wrong. in that instant, i wanted time to pause and give me time to savour the moment. but, i always cherish every second everytime i am with you. i miss you so darn much right now. i love youu

i just updated my fotolog. it contains images from ecp. well, just check it out. and screw dland servers. bcos of dem,i cant blog much. argh. fcuk it.

-happy birthday my dear. i love you so much.

00:00 p.m. - 2005-01-20

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marooned

it's an undescribable feeling that is surpassing me right now. everything's moving so fast. and i'm left behind. i'm way behind time. damn. i don't know what i did. well, i'm sure not going to think so throughly about it. it'll pass.. i hope..

oh yeah, i've changed the song to my blog. damn. anyone know's any file storage website? i wanna change. ripway's kinda ripped. mwhaha. anyone.. ???

the 2nd day of skool and i'm already this screwed. it's not all peachy in skool. goin to skool, recess and after skool is obviously my highlights,as i spend them with melissa, but other than that, it's kinda torture. but, skool's fun. i'm getting the enthusiasm for learning again. i'm so liking it. me?not focused?lol. think again. really,think again.

i'll just update tomorrow then. whatever it is, peace~~ ` i love you melissa. i'm really nuts over you..

-i'm nuts..over you

9:13 p.m. - 2005-01-18

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kokokrunchrocks

well, its dinner time and i'm eating koko krunch. bleargh. nice dinner.mwhaha. very nice. mwhaha. there is absolutely nothing much to study. more or less, everything's been covered already. hmm..

[thought] maybe it's my fault. maybe i've been looking at others and never wondered my own mistakes. damn. well, it is my fault. well whatever it is, fcuk it. i've changed. oh yeah. as genieve would say, i'm wierd. maybe i've been avoiding these people, who are my close friends. damn. i have no idea for what reason. but i am friggin' sure that i am not gonna let the friendship go down. well, screw me now. yeahh. i spend alotta time with melly. and i am soo loving it. mwhaha..oh yeahh..[/thought]

well, honestly speaking, i am much more focused than i was this year than the last. to those who have pointed this out, thanks and i appreciate it. but, i am more focused more than ever to achieve my goal. that is 14 points and below. i hop..no. i will get it. at this point of time, only losers believe in hope. wait for hope all you want, cos it aint never gonna happen if u make it happen. either that or you've been watching too much kartoons. mwhaha..

` how i cant wait for the day to come. strolling down the pathway, hand in hand with the gustling wind in our faces. omfg. it's so nice. i cant wait to spend the day with you. i love you so much~

damn. next week's tests week. stoopid 5day a week. well, at least i dun have to go back to late as i used to in sec 3. but, i kinda miss that. mwhaha.

-i'm perfectly nuts..[over youu]

8:08 p.m. - 2005-01-17

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mind's in a twirl

well,well. i just got to found out that there are people downloading the song from my host.bloody hell. stop doing that you faggots. well, it wont do me any good. well,whatever. screw youu..

i've been getting shots of dizziness for the past few days. it's either lack of sleep or i'm just simply dizzy. damn. even now. my head hurts slightly. tomorrow''s skool. how fast the weekends past. damn. i hardly felt a thing. damn. the next moment, i'm back in skool, listening to ms shamsiah going through our mensuration worksheet. well, it's life..for now.

` i will never ever leave you. i promise to grow old with you and stay by your side,always. i will always and forever love you..

well, s'pore won the singa cup. its fitting,aint it?singapura,menang piala singa. mwhaha. it means singapore won the tiger cup.good for them. i'm really not into asian soccer. it's just too boring. not much excitement. its just 22 people,running. that all. after 15 mins on the field, they get tired already. u can see dat my telling how bad are they perspiring. well, at least s'pore won honours. dats cool. =]]

till tomorrow i guess..piss be upon you. and it's gunna be monotonous.damn.

-obaq3hoae3h

10:09 p.m. - 2005-01-16

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I

it's friday. the sweetest day of the whole week. no skool for the next few days. how lovely. sleeping late and waking up later. feelings of holidays suddenly came back. i hate it. mwhaha. i hate holidays,seriously. i can't see my dearest melissa much. that is what ticks me off about holidays. yeah,i know, you must be thinking, 'u stoopid shithead!!holidays and u hate it'. lol. hard to say,its true. mwhaha..

[thought] it's alot different this year. damn. i know that i spend like 80% of my time with her, but that does'nt mean that you guys treat me differently. well, that is how i feel. so,if i'm mistake, i'm sorry. compare this year to the last. i'm treasuring this year more as i'm much closer to melissa. but last year, it was different. damn. what happened? that i don't know. i,myself cant wait to find out. it's like i'm trapped in four friggin' walls,all surrounding me. no way to break free. why is it different this year? is it because of my time with melissa? i doubt so. well, we're not like other typical couples. we spend much more time with each other than other couples spend time together. yeah. i might be making false assumptions,but i am pretty darn sure i'm right. well, screw it. if it continues like this, it's all gunna screw up. go figure [/thought]

yeah. i'm totally back to blogging. for the past few weeks, blogging has not crossed my mind for a long time. now, i just feel like blogging. well, whatever. it's fun to blog. wee~ i can still remember the time when i started this blog. haha. i updated like once,every 2 hours. damn. so enthu. and i wrote shit when i updated. mwhaha. how childish i was. damn. wait, i am still childish now. mwhaha. childish in a mature way. like eating smoked sausages with cheese and bread. its nice by the way. i had it just now. mwhaha =]]

holding your hand, and hugging you felt so nice. i did not want the feeling to stop. your head rested on mine touched me deeply. it's more than just a simple rest. it meant much more than that. i treasure every moment we spend together. even if it was for one second. i love you melissa. i really do~

-i'm nuts..over you

10:14 p.m. - 2005-01-14

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for the first time in the past few days in skool that i've really been paying attention. i mean seriously. i could do the locus worksheet pretty easily. ironically, i did not do any of the locus homework given to me. we had 4 worksheets to do over the past few days. and i did not hand in one. but i understood the topic fully. mwhaha. locus is easy. bleargh. well, obviously, skool always starts with the easy topics. when we have the momentum going, the going gets tough. argh. screw it. well, i'm pretty confident i can deal with it. more or less, i gotta deal with it. its the o's year.fcuk it. imma not gunna talk abt the o's anymore. bleargh

i just finished reading danielle steel's, the gift. and the story really touched my heart. the story is full of warmth and sensitivity. its so sweet and it's a very beautiful book. oh yeah, i read 2 novels in a week. accomplishment. oh yeah. i am back to reading. but,i wanna get 'the da vinchi code'. anyone willing to lend me their copy??

you said warmly, 'i love you'. those three words really made my day sparkle up in an instant. it's like i got electricuted. the three words that has been misused, misunderstood and misread by others has not applied to me. i don't give a damn what others think. i love you. i love you so so much.

[thought] okay, i am nuts over my dear melissa. it's true, i am very much in love with her. morning spent with her, recess and after skool. but, i wanna spend more time with her. maybe i'm being selfish, but i told her this. and she feels the same way. we are selfish. we are selfish about each other. and we are mad about each other. totally. [/thought]

to the nacli people. it's been a while since i heard from u guys. actually it's not been a while. it's been a long while. remember, even if u are busy,always remember that the pinkie represents patience. and keep that in mind. it helps. =]]

-i'm nuts..over you

9:08 p.m. - 2005-01-13

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ipanheophae

finally,after a long time,i got the song from the ocean's twelve movie. the one where the night fox was making his way past the laser beams.mwhaha. nice song. its soo nice. ohh yeah, i hate techno. the funky flutes and other instruments makes is ohh soo irrestable. enjoy~

reading has been a burning passion,instilled once again by my determination to do extremely well for my o's. i just finished writing a 5-page essay yesterday. damn. i suprised myself. i lost myself into the writing that i did'nt know that 3 fullscapes has been used. hmm..cool.

i miss you. i really do. it's been a few hours ago that i last saw you..i love you

-i'm nuts

8:12 p.m. - 2005-01-12

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stars

its been a while since i finished reading a novel. and today at 6.16pm, i just did. mwhaha. it felt good and i am soo gunna do it again.haha. thanks sidney sheldon. totally =]]

oh yeah, for the people whom have loved the previous song dat was on my blog,just message me on msn n if u want,i'll send u the song. i changed the song to something that i listen to. hope yall like. its screamo by the way. dun leave til u hear everything. its a nice song. haha..

luckily i got the extention to my el holiday assignment. damn. i've not started a thing. gotta get cracking. i'm this close [sticks out thumb n index finger n stretches them] to getting into the stoodying mode. i even got remedial til 2 tmr. damn. leceh la. stoopid 5 day a week thing. well, at least its no skool on sat,leaving the day free for whatever. ohh yeahh~

watching you looking down and moving ur right hand on the piece of paper made me realise that everything was possible in this world. even if it meant stoodying together. i know we've done it alot. it felt alot better to me that we're doin it again. at least i can buck on my malay. haha. i love you sweetie. ..more than u'll ever know.actually, u already know.u feel the same way abt me. =]]

-i'm nuts..over you

7:57 p.m. - 2005-01-10

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poke me, please

the 1st week of skool is over.damn. that was fast. told ya that skool would just sweep past u in a split second.okay.i'm lying. i did not.but now i am.

i just trimmed my hair.lol. it looks abit short,but who gives a fcuk. i aint gunna cut my hair untill june or so.bleargh.

homeworks alot during the holidays. holiday assignments.damn. alot to do, so little time.haha.oh yeah.

the moment i looked at you, i melted instantly.i love you sweetie

-i'm nuts..over you

7:21 p.m. - 2005-01-08

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anexic

homework has piled up and obviously i have to start on it. damn. i'm liking my seating arrangement. it's soo at the back. =]] bleargh. holiday's assignment is due on monday. damn. i got a long way to go. everything's just scurrying past me. it's almost the first week of skool. damn. that was fast. screw skool. it's going so fast. i don't even know what hit me..

i love your heartmelting smile. you mean everything to me..and much more, so much more. i love you.

-i'm nuts..over you

9:55 p.m. - 2005-01-06

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` back to sk0Ol

its after skool and i kinda miss the tired feeling u get after u return home from skool. it makes u wanna sleep. oh yeah.

skool was monotonous as always. the fucking principal talking shit and the friggin' dm was blabbing about crap which was totally useless. damn. how irritating this is. other than seeing all my friends again, skool was shitty. oh yeah it was.

ur smile made me smile. ur laughter made me laugh. u just lit up my day in an instant. the moment u stepped out of the lift, i was brightened. i love you sweetie. i love you soo much

tomorrow, skool's gunna start. i mean the real skool. the skool u go to, to study and get good grades. this time, i am not going to slack. its full speed ahead. damn. i'm not even gonna look back. foward, charge!! =bleargh,sue me and tie me up.

-i'm nuts..over you

3:44 p.m. - 2005-01-03

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hello 05'

its 2005. damn. one year passed me by with great speed. really. damn. u could say i did not spend enuff time in 2004. well, screw 2004. its over. time to face the music. its full speed ahead. o's, here i fucking come.

its bad enough that skool starts in a few hours time. damn. scoldings and homework awaits me. damn. maybe there might be a loophole. well, screw it. just deal with it for one more year and i'm outta yuhua. mwaahaha. cant wait.

i miss you. its really close. time is ticking by with great speed. i really cant wait to see you. i just cant. i love you sweetie. i love u soo much

damn. new year's resolution's always a target which i find hard to achieve. but, i'll try my best. hope i get wat i aimed for. getting top ten in my class is smth i am trying so hard to do. i managed to get ten at the middle of last year. i slipped at the end of the year. damn. get the o's over and done with. and spend every moment i can with my dearest melissa. =]] ohh yeah.. resolutions. sigh. the 1st's toughest. damn. till tomorrow then ya'll. oh yeah, have a fucking happy new year everyone. =]]

-i'm nuts

1:07 a.m. - 2005-01-02

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eve of new year's eve

well, the gathering was great. there was food, drinks and people. oh yeah. and there was fun too. the breeze was great. the view was better. kudos to all that came. thanks for coming. bleargh

its kinda funny to noe that skool's gunna start next week. i've not even bought my shoes! ahh. come on, extent it.haha. well, whatever. i wish it could be extended. =]]

under the sky, and above the sand, i sat there, thinking. with the breeze upon me and just staring blankly at absolutely nothing. it felt good to know that my heart's with you. u are all i could think about when i was there. nothing could distract me from my incomprehensive thoughts. i love you sweetie. totally.

i just changed the song of the blog. its a malay song. before u jump to conclusions and say that i'm one of those who listen to typical malay songs, i just chose this song cos its nice and the lyrics are good. thats all. even tho u cant understand the lyrics,[lyk me!], just enjoy it. like i did with 'an jing'. haha. enjoy ya'll.

-again, i wld lyk to thank everyone for coming. oh yeah~ btw, i've uploaded fotos.chk it out. my fotopage.if ure interested dat is

10:10 p.m. - 2004-12-30

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funkadellicly

me n my dear set up a blog. check it out ya'll. if u dun lyk m'ushy stuff, dun go in. click here

haha.its a nice blog.haha. i love it

-i'm nuts..over you.

1:31 a.m. - 2004-12-27

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x'mas

merry christmas to everyone. totally..

even to this merry day, i miss u so much. it won't be long now untill i see you. i love you melissa. u'll always be on my mind. always

oh yeah, i'm using fotopages again. haha. well, just check out the fotos i took when i was at genieve's crib jux nw. click here. enjoy ya'll

-merry x'mas~

i've updated my photolog. enjoy it,ya'll.

i just woke up from a nice nap. when i woke up,everyone went to sleep. my sis,bro are the only ones, besides me, are awake. suprising. hmm.. tired i guess..

gd luck to all o'level candidates tomorrow, especially the muslims. it's hari raya and ya'll are mugging for the exams. kudos to ya'll. may the force be with you. mwhaha..

i miss you.. i wanna hear your voice now. i wanna hear your 'hello'. i wanna see you.. i miss you so much. i want you so desperately. i love you..i love you so much..

it feels good to have some moolah in your wallet, but as i have been saying for a long time, ' you'll only be rich for a short while only.period. mwhaha. til whenever,

-i'm nuts over you

10:21 p.m. - 2004-11-15

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its your day

It's been a nice day. Hari Raya is one lovely occasion. The costumes, the people, and more importantly, the food. Mwhaha.. It's nice. Oh yeah~ =] I'm quite full after eating alot today. Oh yeah, I'm no longer fasting. Haha..

I've been taking alotta fotos. Go check it out, here.

Even though I've been smiling and laughing all day, I've been thinking of you at the same time. We may not spend this joyus occasion together, but in the future, we will. I miss you Melissa. I love you..

I'm kinda tired. I just feel like snapping more fotos. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, I GOT ME A DIGICAM. Mwhahaha.. I'm like so psyched. Totally~~ =]

I'd like to wish all, Selamat Hari RAya. I'm sorry for all my wrongdoings. Haha.. Totally.. Enjoy this day. It's your day. Till whenever people. Oh yeah, check out my fotolog often. I'll be updating that often too. Mwhaha..

-I'm nuts..totally, over you

9:22 p.m. - 2004-11-14

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funky =]

It's the time of the year when the malays decorate their house with 'lampu kelap-kelip', bake pineapple tarts and dress funkadellically to people's houses. Haha. SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL.. SORRY IF I'VE USED ANY HARSH LANGUAGE[ITHINKIDID]. ENJOY YOUR DAY.

I miss you.. It's a cheerful day and I'm here feeling so empty. I miss you. I need you. I love you..

I'll update later. Haha. Peace out assholes.. Til' whenever,

-I'm nuts..over you

12:08 a.m. - 2004-11-14

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scarlett

I'm sipping icey cold green tea from my mug. How lovely. I've just finished a huge packet of Lays:BBQ. It's lovely, to have broke fast. Yeah. It is.

Fastings' gunna end tomorrow. Then it's Hari Raya. The day every malay teenager has been waiting for the whole year. Honestly speaking, I would prefer if there weren't any Hari Raya this year. Totally.. I'm not excited at all about it. I'm obviously not gunna enjoy myself this Sunday. I'll just hope it ends as quickly as it came. Totally [=

I've been listening to alot of screamo lately. Lovely. I've discovered alot of talented bands that few heard of. Yeah. Sweet~ . I love screamo. Oh yeah~

I miss you.. I've been up for so long today, just thinking of you, what you are doing, what you are thinking.. I wanna be beside you right now.. I love you..

Daphne is out of S'pore Idol. Overrated show. Well, it's gunna end soon. Hmm.. Till whenever assholes.. Oh yeah, LEIA, INTAN, GENIEVE, LIYANA ROCKS!! YEAH! VOTE FOR THEM!! I'm manical. [=

-I'm nuts..over you

9:23 p.m. - 2004-11-12

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Diwali is today

Piracy is the best policy. Totally. I've been downloading loads of songs lately. Sweet~. Fuck the government dogs. Like I give a shit. Obviously I don't download like 20+ songs at one go. Just a few. But it accumulates to quite alot. Haha..

Well, Happy Deepavali to all my Indian friends. Go enjoy yourselves. I wanna videocam an actual Deepavali one day. Haha. Gonna be sweet~~

I got alotta things I wanna get my hands on. Damn. I hope I get it by end of this year. Better yet, before my jiggie-ass birthday. Speaking of Birthdays, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GENIEVE!! Sorry I forgot to update yesterday. Haha.

I miss you. It was a lovely sight to see you in the morning. I felt as though I did not see you for over a year. I love you. I wanna dream of you. I really do..

Well, till whenever faggoties.. Bush won Kerry by the way. Haha. Idiotic politics. Well, I'm political. I hate the government. Dunno why. Haha. Government dogs. Whatever~

-I'm totally nuts..

12:46 a.m. - 2004-11-11

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rumours

Hahaha. I've been irritating people with my in and out of msn for the past few seconds. Funny. All sorts of different messages came. I was just saying that LINDSAY LOHAN CAN SING MUCH BETTER THAN HILLIARY DUFF. MUCH BETTER. Haha. I got proof. Listen to the song right now that is playing on your pathetic sound system. It's Lindsay's new single. Mwhaha. I'm nuts..this is proof.

I just got back from a hilarious outing. Ya'll gotta check out Pablo Francisco. He's bloody funny. A brilliant standup comedian. Haha. I love this dood. I'm not homo. I love his jokes. So funny. Oh yeah, it's not for those who don't understand American jokes. Haha. =]

I miss you. I've been thinking of you when I was up there, enjoying the warm breeze. I love you. Oh gosh. I love you so so much..

Till whenever fcukers~. Mwaahaha.. I'm being rude. Damn. Well, fuck care.

-I'm nuts..over you

10:48 p.m. - 2004-11-08

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eyes half open

Well, I've skipped E.Maths remedial. Haha. I woke up, a while ago, hoping that I could still make it for the remedial. I checked the time and it was 9.08am. Damn. Moments later, I recieved a call from Genieve, to ask me to go to skool for some admin stuff. Well, I'm going. Damn.

I'm kinda tired lately. Been sleeping quite alot, most probably because I've been sleeping bloody late. I still have not shaken the cobwebs out. The sentences I'm typing have so many errors. Typo errors which has to be edited dozens of times. Damn. It's irritating.

I'll blog later, I suppose. I'm gonna on my ps2 and to skool later. Well, till whenever..

-I'm nuts..

9:16 a.m. - 2004-11-08

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friggin' muppets

It's darn late and I'm not asleep. I just finished watching Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. Haha. Lame and funny movie. Very funky characters too. Haha.

Next week's Hari Raya and I don't feel the buzz of excitement. It's so plain and dull, in my house. I wake up, on the PS2 and start on my GTA:San Andreas. Oh yeah, did ya'll know I got a hamster? It's so cute!! So small and cute. But it's kinda scared and noisy. Makes the squeaky noise when you try to touch it. Welcome to my world, Jellybean.

I miss you. I wanna see you, in any way possible. I love you. I love you so much..

A shoutout to all the dood's that have been mugging for O'levels, I wish ya'll the best of luck and hope ya'll pass with good fucking colours. May the force be with you fuckers. Haha..~

Lindsay Lohan's new single aint half bad. It's worth a listen. Haha. I don't like pop, honestly. I hate it. But, I like Lindsay. So, go figure. I think I'll play the song on my blog soon. Haha. ??? Hmm..

I guess that's all for now. Till whenever, fuckers. [ I'm vulgar. Honestly, I'm influenced by the recent movies that I've watched. Sorry. Haha.]

-I'm nuts..over you

2:29 a.m. - 2004-11-06

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psychedellic 19

Happy birthday my dearest sister!!! May all your wishes come true and i love you!!

It's nice to hang out with your own flesh and blood. Laughs and jokes shared between one another. Sounds lovely. It's beautiful. I may not be the world's greatest brother, but I certainly know that i love you. Happy 19th birthday sis. Totally funkadellic~~

-I'm nuts

12:17 a.m. - 2004-11-03

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monolouge

Damn. I'm sleepy. Argh. And it's pretty early. ?? I guess goin out 3 times is pretty fatiguing. It's fun though.

Hearing her voice was so sweet. The words that left her lips were unforgettable. I'll remember it. It's so lovely. I love you so much`

Well, it's a pretty stoopid entry. But, I'm just sleepy to write further. My brains a blank. Till whenever,

-I'm nuts..over you

10:47 p.m. - 2004-11-01

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closing time

Well, it's officially the last day of skool. I'm glad that skool's over. I'm not gonna like the class that I'm going to be in next year. It's gonna be half-empty. All those crazy fuckers aint gonna be there. Pity. Nevertheless, the fuckers are always gonna be lingering me. I'm gonna miss you guys!!

Remedials and worksheets are gonna swamp the first month of my holidays. Remedials throughout the month of November. Frankly, I don't feel that skool's over. It feels that it has just continued. Damn..

I miss you so much already. I want to see you. I miss the laughs we used to share. I miss everything that we did together. I love you. I love you so much..

The bloody weather is damn random. Keeps changing. But the lovely rain is something only sad fucks will loathe. It's a wonderful feeling to be enjoying the breeze on top of a hill.

I'm gonna revamp everything. Well, I'm not totally sure. I don't know what to change. Suggestions anyone? Hmm.. Till whenever,

-I'm nuts..over you

4:05 p.m. - 2004-10-29

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